My dad got kicked out of my house, for causing too much stress.
Orion is implying his love for Cas even more, and it hurts like you wouldn't believe. Just knowing he lied and doesn't care about me in the way he said is torture enough.
I miss my best fucking friend Emilia, I haven't talked to her in so long.
My mom called the police due to my father threatening her... I wont be able to see him now.
Dad called my therapist, and told her a lot of things. She had to call children's aid, and I almost got taken ut of my house and home because of that.
I'm being put in the middle of everything, and just thinknig about him makes me want to cry, but I have to do what I know she'll say.
"Build a bridge, and get over it." But she couldn't even come over when I was at my worst. She didn't want to risk being in the middle of it all, for her best friend.
I'm going to admit that I miss Kyrie-Ann so very much. I still hold feelings for her... but she may not hold the same ones for me.
If Sarah comes over this weekend, I hope she brings her whiskey and some Coke-a-cola. Pocky would be good too.
I love fire, Saturday nights in Neon lights, but I'm too scared to do something about it.
My therapist Kathryn told me that a lot of my phobias had to deal with my dad and what he has done before...
He's drinking again. I want to sob and sob, but I know he'll just yell and hit me. Or my mom. So I'll hide in the bathtub, under all of the water, and pretend that I'm really dreaming, leting the music drown out all of the screaming. He'll either end up killing himself, or somebody else. I don't want to remember him as a scary man... but I have good memories too. I promise if he dies, I wont stop crying.
I layed in his bed last night, and didn't want to leave it. I sobbed on his pillows, and wished he didn't cause us so much stress.