That's what's up...?

Apparently I'm four years old, and I don't understand proper English.
Apparently I'm too stupid for my parents to cope with.
Apparently my problems are causing them problems.
Apparently they love her more than they love me.
Apparently they are homophobic, too bad for me.
Apparently they don't even suspect me having a girlfriend. I only talk about her... what... 12/7?

I'm too scared to tell them I'm fourteen.
I'm too scared to stick up for myself and actually say, "Stop treating me like a child. I understand what you're talking about, so stop making me feel like a total idiot."
I'm too scared to watch, or even HEAR my mom saying, "You're making me need to take my pills."
I'm too scared to bring up the fact that they love her more than me, because they'll shout at me again.
I'm obviously too scared to lose my family over having a girlfriend, even if I'm clearly into guys as much as girls.

I think they're maknig me afraid of them, myself... and just the world.